There are not many words, if any, than can describe why I find myself here where I am today. Life has an unexpected way of picking you up and throwing you down somewhere else like a “life tornado”; just when you expect it least life changes without warning.

In the last year my life has had highs and much lows. I have stood on the precipice between madness and sanity, between life and death. Somehow, between the overwhelming stress, tiredness and panic attacks I sit here writing on my blog for the first time in I don’t know how long. Since the beginning of the year I have spend time in two continents, two hemispheres and seven countries. I have learnt to drive a right hand drive car (I learnt in a left hand drive), driven my BMW at 230 KPH (there was more left but I ran out of space!), visited new places, ridden on a husky dog sled in Sweden, eaten reindeer, got to love my kids yet more. And yet I am still at the beginning of my year, life stood still for five months.

Now I stand, the day before my 32nd birthday (or rather 25 version 8), watching Eurovision (I never know why I do) with my two kids – Lucas and Iris – sleeping upstairs, wondering what the newest chapter of my life will hold. I know some things that it will not hold. It will not hold arguments, stagnation or bitterness. I have had enough of that to fill a lifetime. Not all mine and not all of it deserved in any direction.

For the future, I plan to execute my “bucket list” and do the things that I have always wanted to do (or have thought up as cool things to do). I will make sure that I live life to the full, I have but one and I plan to make it a good one…

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